What do you think of Affirmations

I had a woman that I used to work with... Actually she was my boss. She believed in the work of Affirmations. She swore by them. This lady I look up too. She is the most spiritual, well balanced, feet on the ground, positive person. She is a hard worker - she was a great mentor. She was just an all round lovely person. You know one of those lovely people where the world would look like a rose through their eyes. I've only ever met a few of these people in my 26 years of living & she is one of them. 

Anyway she believed in Affirmations. To the point where I've seen them around her house when I went over there a few times. In the bed room - in the kitchen - in the bathroom. Just little positive things that she tells herself. She swore by them - she said they made her more grounded and made her look at herself and life and see what she really wanted out of it. 

SO this week I decided that I'm the master of my life - and my well being & I've started to do positive affirmations. Telling myself that I believe in myself, telling myself I'm a good person. Its strange but even though I've had a few ups and down's this week... I feel that coming back to these positive thoughts have been great. A good way to keep my heads in the clouds - but in a good way. A great way to cut out all the bull shit that seems to drag me down. At work - with friends - with me. The down's - the things that bring you down. These affirmations make me start to think that life is too short to worry. 

So as I'm sitting down relaxing on a saturday night on my own - I'm thinking of my affirmations... I'm thinking how lucky & blessed I am to have my life... I'm thinking of how much I love my weekends - how much I value my family. How I love my friends. How work sucks but I don't need to go back until Monday. And I haven't even had a touch of Alcohol and I'm thinking like this... 

I'm all for the affirmations and being positive. 

J 

Twit Twit...

Twitter.com is my new favorite social networking website... I love it!! I've only just signed up today - and its so much fun.... 

But still trying to figure it out. 

J 

All hail to the Followill boys!

Saturday night I took myself off to Acer Arena out at Homebush to see the Followill boys preform. And as always they did not disapoint in any way shape or form... It was one of the best concerts that I've been too... And one that I would love to go to again!!! 

They all hold sex appeal that makes every girl want to scream... They probably hold the sex appeal that makes grown strait men want to scream. 

While its true I did attend the sold out gig on my own (I could only find one ticket and I wasn't letting that go for anyone) I had a fantastic night all the same. And think that I would go to gig's on my own if my friends can't come - or don't want to come. I ended up making friends with these guys that were also standing around where I was. They were nice - and we danced all night long to the boys. 

While by far I have to say that Knocked Up is my favorite song of all time... Sex on Fire really did get the crowd going. It was easy to distinguish the old fans that span back longer then this recent album - and I enjoyed how they worked the crowed with great mixes of old and new.  

Unfortunately for me it doesn't look like they'll be in Europe at the end of the year when I head over... I would have loved to have seen them. Perhaps a trip to the US is in order to see them in their home country! 

J 

My how the tables have turned

Years ago when I was with my ex - he and I would go out for dinner every friday night. Actually most nights we would eat out - at beautiful restaurants.... Most that I couldn't afford - most that he couldn't afford. But I guess together we just made it work. Tonight I was at a restaurant with old family friends of my parents - one that my ex and I used to dine at rather a lot. And one that I can tell you that we spent each valentines day together. But while walking into this restaurant - I didn't think of him... or the life that we used to share... or the fact that I hadn't been back since we broke up. But all I thought about was how much I can't wait to start eating that great food that they have on offer. Yep I thought about my belly and not my ex. HA. 

It wasn't until about half way through my dinner that I did actually start thinking about my ex - and how different it is at this restaurant without him with me. But I wasn't missing him at all... I was just thinking back to a very different part of my life. A different me. 

I thought of my ex in a good light - and not in a way that I hate him - or I still love him. I just thought of him in a way that I knew him and I'm not sad that its over & I'm not wishing that we were still together or anything. I'm happy that that phase of my life is over - but I guess for the first time in I guess NEVER i felt nothing towards him... How does this creep up and start to begin? And why does it start happening? Its not like me for this to happen - I hold onto things - I never want to let go... Partly because I always think that I had it great and I'm the one that fucks things up... And partly because I hate change and I just can't let things go... EVER! 

It feels great to get rid of the past and start to move onto better things - to a future. I'm trying not to look back at the past - and wanting to be back there... I'm trying to look at the future & be hopeful. I haven't been hopeful in a long time. And I'm really pleased with myself that I am doing this... Trust me its a new leaf. And I can hardly believe it myself. 

Fingers crossed this outlook stays for a while & I don't fall back into old patterns. But while I'm thinking about it - I'm curious do other people hold onto the past? Or do people move on rather easily.. Is it stupid to keep looking back - or is it good to sometimes look behind. Some times I just cant figure it out... 

J

Nerd alert nerd alert

At the moment I've turned into a nerd... I have been known to go through these phases before in my life. But this has even surprised myself. I've had my iphone since September of last year. For the first time on the weekend I ended up updating the software... And with updating the software - I was allowed access to a wonderful variety of applications. 

News, gossip, events, RSS feeds, games, movies, variety of world newspapers, different photography applications, restaurant guides... The list goes on. And these are all free. Can you believe it... Free! 

My current favorite ones are the RSS feeds - which I've only set up this evening... It means that no matter where I am - I'm always updated on my favorite blogs that I read daily. Even though I could read these on my work computer - I do prefer not too. I less that I do on my work computer the better I believe. 

Of course I'm a huge facebook application user - and news... I love the fact that I can get the new york times, All the major Australian newspapers in one push of the button. 

The only application that I'm looking for - and am desperately wanting - is one to follow the rugby. Union would be preferable - and club rugby around Sydney would be fantastic... Though I have a feeling that I would be pushing the friendship with that last request. 

But if anyone is aware of any applications for Rugby Union (Super 14) pass on the details this way... This iPhone nerd is well keen to get hold of it. 

J

Right back on that horse.

Ever since my brief encounter with a stranger a couple of weeks back - I've found that its woken the sleeping me inside. I feel like its amazing how some casual sex can change things around... I've found that Im right back into my healthy and positive patterns again. Gym, eating better, positive thoughts, seeing my friends, still hate work (but nothing changes there), and in general feeling a lot better all around. Isn't it funny what a little push can give you. 

While I don't think its entirely to do with the encounter that I so happened to have... I think its more of the fact that I'm awake again. I feel like I've been sleeping for months & struggling with everything around me. But now its like I'm feeling more and more like me again. 

So plans are being made for the future... Idea's are forming. And this whole economic credit crisis that is being talked about 20 times a day isn't bothering me any more. Life is good... And getting right back on that "horse" has seemed to really been what I needed. And the best part is - even though he was sexy and hot... I don't have to see him again. 

Big thumbs up for casual sex... I'm all for it! 

J 

A little naughty!

It turns out that I've been up to my old tricks again in the last few weeks when I've been going out... The weekend before last I declared myself to let my guard down a little & go out and have some more "fun" and meet people. I'm wanting to try & change my outlook on a few things in my life - and not be so uptight and just relax a little... So my girlfriend declared - once she found out - that it was high time that I had a little male fun! And I thought she couldn't be more right!!!! 

We were out our local & we were trying to get these guys attention... One of the guys was really cute & we were pulling out all our best moves to get them to come over & chat to us... But to no avail - nothing happened. So at 2am - we decided to get some food & call it a night. Mission didn't really go to plan - not even a kiss to wrap up the night!!! But as always a nice little turn of events occured & the guys were leaving the local at the same time - & we ended up talking. They invited me for another drink at a bar & I politely declined... I just couldn't be bothered at this point. So I was walking home - and as it turned out one of the guys came to walk with me... The hot one!!! So as it turned out we got along rather well & he kissed me - and I invited him home. 

I never really recommend Sex with a stranger... But I must say it was a hell of a lot of fun!!! Just what I needed! Though the bad thing - if you want to call it bad - no name or numbers were exchanged. It was a pure hook up with nothing more wanted on my behalf. & it felt great. 

Once again I was out this weekend just gone... I was just up for a little more "fun" being a single girl. But it turned out the guy that I was kissing was a friend of a friend. A nice guy - and one that I've been out with many a times... We always have a laugh - but i never think anything more of it.... He has a girlfriend! 

I seem to be the girl that can always find the guys that have a girlfriend - have a wife... Or always a something. It can't ever just be simple & nice and easy. I don't know the girlfriend. Actually in the 12 months that I have known him I have only met his girlfriend once - it doesn't make what I did right.... But some how because I don't actually know the girl it makes me feel a little better about myself. 

Lucky I plan on laying low for a few week now... Try and keep myself away from the attached boys - or the hot one's with no names!!! 

J